It Seems Like in Times of Great Change, Nothing is New

Or is it that nothing is new?

I’m slumping. This is to be distinguished from that state of being “in a slump” as I believe I am actively participating in the process. Time was when I worked and worked and struggled and struggled but it seems the more money I make, the less work I do.

I’m sorry!! Sheesh. I know this is a well-held secret but I’ve decided to let the cat out of the bag. No reason not to really. What’s in it for me? Natta. I’m not invested in not working. I prefer the busyness and activity that comes with heads-down activity, rather than finger-pointing directing.

SK said that I am no longer getting paid to “work”, but that my salary is justified by the responsibility that comes with the position. I am, therefore, institutionalized. My “position” defines me, rather than my work. This makes me itch a little. Just a little.

I think I’d be more okay with such an arrangement if there was good news to read on the ‘net, or if I were a writer and could use the time to craft the great American novel. As it is, I try to fill my time learning MS Project and “following-up.”--Which isn’t so bad. Somehow, though, it feels like I’ve lived this life before and, while not a bad life, I sure could use something new.